Best Moment of My Existence- A Divine Experience
A story about the life-changing moment God spoke to me
God's presence is awe-inspiring and glorious. I noticed the Holy Spirit was with me, but I never identified it as God Himself.
One day, I was sobbing and praying to God because I was so heartbroken. I felt like I had betrayed Him by being in relationships with the type of men I was with. They required so much attention that I had to change my entire routine to please them. The first routine I neglected was the time I spent with the Lord.
When I prayed, I repented. I continued to express to the Lord how sorry I was to hurt Him. I explained to Him how he never left me, but I always left Him. I compared the pain He felt with the pain I felt at the end of a relationship. I love hard, so I know the Lord loves even harder.
God told me in a soft but clear voice, "Be gentle with yourself." Then Ledisi's song "BGTY" started to play in my head. This soft but clear voice came from within me. The song He chose for me, I hadn't played it in years. He knew I loved music, so He chose music to comfort me. That was my first of many moments God came to me.
Before that experience, I had others. There was a time when all I did was spiritual studies throughout the day. Just like I'm doing now. I read the Bible, I prayed, I praised, and worshipped. I didn't have anyone to talk to, but I felt God's comfort.
Anxiousness rushes through my body from time to time. When this happens, comforting scriptures would replay in my head over and over. He would send His Word to me in every second of my day.
There were times when I struggled with maintaining employment. God provided my necessities. I was still able to pay my rent. I was still able to pay my utilities, car note, and insurance. I was also able to keep groceries in the house. I knew it was Him with no doubt in my mind.
God forgave me before I even prayed to Him. I felt God touch my heart and heal me. The weight that heartbreak carries was lifted from my spirit. I am so grateful to have experienced this moment, and I wanted Him to keep me in that space forever and ever.
